Kelly Clarkson: 'I don't want to suck as a mum'
Kelly Clarkson is struggling with mommy guilt as she tries to be the best mother to her two kids.
The Since U Been Gone singer gave birth to her second child, Remington, six months ago and now she's mom to him, two-year-old sister River Rose and husband Brandon Blackstock's two kids from a previous relationship, and she admits life at home can be a little overwhelming at times.
"You have to juggle everything," she tells People magazine. "While
I love music, my family comes first. There are days where s**t hits
the fan, and I'm crying because there's not enough time to do
everything. But that's any mom. It's a hard thing to take care of
children. You're molding lives. You don't want to suck at it.
"Every day is different. But there's always a lot of energy. The
older kids are home schooled. So everybody is always in the house.
It's a really busy, busy household."
But it's when she has to perform or promote a new song or book that
the worst things about motherhood kick in.
"I'm bad at time management," she adds. "I definitely feel mom
guilt a lot. I think every good mom does, right? I think I have mom
guilt too because my mom didn't have help and I have help. I feel
like, 'Why can't I do it all?' But you can't. That's dumb.
"I do so much for them and I do bend over backwards. But it doesn't
matter. If you're a mom, you want to be with your kid every day.
You don't want to miss a moment and you want her to need you and
want you and not want somebody else.
"It's a hard thing, but I think being a confident female for my
daughter. I don't know. We're all human. She will end up in therapy
for something. I am sure there will be something! I hope it won't
be confidence."