Emma Stone: 'Acting helped my anxiety'
Emma Stone used acting as an outlet to help treat her childhood anxiety.
The Help star suffered from debilitating anxiety and by the time she was seven-years-old, her mental state and frequent panic attacks were affecting her everyday routine.
"My brain (would) naturally zoom 30 steps ahead to the worst-case
scenario," she tells Rolling Stone magazine. "When I was about
seven, I was convinced the house was burning down. I could sense
it. Not a hallucination, just a tightening in my chest, feeling I
couldn't breathe, like the world was going to end.
"There were some flare-ups like that, but my anxiety was constant.
I would ask my mom a hundred times how the day was gonna lay out.
What time was she gonna drop me off? Where was she gonna be? What
would happen at lunch? Feeling nauseous. At a certain point, I
couldn't go to friends' houses anymore - I could barely get out the
door to school."
Emma's parents started taking her to therapy and they soon started
to see a change in their daughter's behavior.
"It helped so much," she says. "I wrote this book called I Am
Bigger Than My Anxiety that I still have: I drew a little green
monster on my shoulder that speaks to me in my ear and tells me all
these things that aren't true. And every time I listen to it, it
grows bigger. If I listen to it enough, it crushes me. But if I
turn my head and keep doing what I'm doing - let it speak to me,
but don't give it the credit it needs - then it shrinks down and
fades away."
The 28-year-old also found solace in performing as a young girl and
discovered improvisation and comedy helped her overcome her
troubles.
"I started acting at this youth theater, doing improv and sketch
comedy," she continues. "You have to be present in improv, and
that's the antithesis of anxiety."
At the age of 14, Emma decided she wanted to drop out of high
school in Arizona and in 2004, she moved to Los Angeles with her
mom to pursue her career in Hollywood.
Things initially didn't go as planned, but she was able to make it
work in her favor and her career eventually took off.
"I did an episode of Malcolm in the Middle," she recalls. "And an
episode of Medium. I was the voice of a dog on The Suite Life of
Zach and Cody."
And her working relationship with casting director Allison Jones
proved to be crucial.
"I auditioned for Allison for three years," she explains. "She
would bring me in for things and they'd never work, but then one
Friday evening she called me and said, 'Hey, my office isn't even
open tomorrow, but I want to put you on tape for something.' It was
Superbad."
The comedy led to Emma landing roles in films like Zombieland and
Easy A, and now the actress is in high demand, drawing critical
acclaim - and Oscars speculation - for her new movie musical, La La
Land.