Lindsay Lohan: 'I'm determined to stay out of trouble'
Lindsay Lohan is determined to stay clean and sober after her sixth rehab stint because the troubled actress finally accepts she is addicted to alcohol and chaos after her most recent 90-day, court-ordered stay this summer (13).
The Mean Girls star sat down for an interview with Oprah Winfrey just four days after she was released from a treatment facility in Malibu, California earlier this month (Aug13), and the TV chat aired on Sunday night (18Aug13).
Lohan kicked off the hour-long special by recalling her past rehab
stints and legal run-ins, and revealed her life started unravelling
in 2007, when she was arrested twice.
She told Oprah, "I got a second DUI within two months of leaving
(rehab center Promises)... I didn't take Promises seriously.
"There are moments, at that age for me, I related on and off but I
didn't really acknowledge that there could be an issue... I'd just
turned 21, I wanted to be able to have fun. I did the same thing
again."
She served treatment time at the strict Cirque Lodge clinic in Utah
and then found herself behind bars for violating her probation in
2010, but it was only when she was ordered to return to rehab for
90 days earlier this year (13) that she pledged to turn her life
around.
Lohan explained, "It's always such a circus when I go to court;
it's just so humiliating... and I think I just hit a wall. I was
just tired. When I spoke to (lawyer) Shawn (Holley) I just said, 'I
think the best option is for me to go to treatment and take these
three months to really just take care of myself and find
myself'.
"I don't think in the past I've ever fully surrendered to the fact
that I just need to shut up and listen. In this case I wasn't
fighting at all... I came into it just really willing and really
craving more spirituality, really open and ready to get really
honest."
She blames her past problems on her addictions and troubled home
life: "(Alcohol) in the past was the gateway to other things, for
me... I tried cocaine with alcohol... It allowed me to drink more.
I think that's why I did it when I did it... I snorted it. I've
never injected anything other than getting B12 (vitamin) shots. It
went hand in hand with drinking.
"And I grew up in a very chaotic home and there were moments of
everything just being wonderful and perfect, and then things being
so uncontrollable and chaotic. It's something that people go
through and unfortunately I have waited too long to face it even
though I've been going to see a therapist for years and years."