Leona Lewis opens up about depression in open letter
British pop star Leona Lewis has written an open letter to fans about her struggle with depression and her fears for the future after parting ways with her record label.
Earlier this year (14), the Bleeding Love singer, who won Britain's The X Factor in 2006, exited Simon Cowell's Syco management firm and Sony Records after seven years on the books.
Lewis has now opened up about the massive career change, blaming
the split on creative differences over her fifth studio album, and
revealing she spent months battling dark thoughts.
In the handwritten note, which was uploaded to her Twitter.com
page, Lewis states, "It has been quite the rollercoaster year. The
emotions I have felt have been more powerful, in both a positive
and negative way, than any other time... in my life.
"At some points I felt extremely depressed and other times
experiences amazing highs, but it got to the point where the downs
were outweighing the ups... I worry too much... I worry about the
future, work, how I look... animals, the environment... At times it
seems absolutely overwhelming and I spiral to a dark place."
She goes on to reveal the split from her record label came about
after she was asked to make an album that "would have not been true
to myself", adding, "I cannot make music that does not speak to my
soul, as scary as it seemed. I could no longer compromise
myself."
Lewis also reveals meditation has helped her move on from her dark
moods, and she is now feeling more positive about the future,
concluding, "You either sink or swim. I chose to swim... Whatever
the future may bring, I am ready."