Miley Cyrus: 'I didn't understand my gender or sexuality at first'
Miley Cyrus struggled with her gender and sexual identity as a child until she realized she was pansexual.
The Wrecking Ball hitmaker, who is back in the arms of former fiance Liam Hemsworth after reuniting with him earlier this year (16), 'came out' about her sexuality to her mother when she was 14-years-old after realizing she wasn't like her mom or other women in her family.
"My mom is like an 1980s rock chick - big blonde hair, big boobs,"
she tells Variety.com. "She loves being a girl. I never felt that
way.
"I know some girls that love getting their nails done. I f**king
hated it. My nails look like s**t. I don't wax my eyebrows. I never
related to loving being a girl. And then, being a boy didn't sound
fun to me. I think the LGBTQ (Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual, Transgender,
Queer) alphabet could continue forever. But there's a 'P' that
should happen - for pansexual."
Pansexual refers to a person who is attracted to another person
regardless of their sexuality or gender, and Miley explains after
she found out what the term meant, she understood her own sexuality
and gender better.
"I went to the LGBTQ center in Los Angeles and I started hearing
these stories," she continues. "I saw one human in particular who
didn't identify as male or female. Looking at them, they were both:
beautiful and sexy and tough but vulnerable and feminine but
masculine. And I related to that person more than I related to
anyone in my life.
"Once I understood my gender more, which was unassigned, then I
understood my sexuality more. I was like, 'Oh, that's why I don't
feel straight and I don't feel gay. It's because I'm not'."
Miley reveals her first meaningful relationship was with a girl,
adding, "My eyes started opening in the fifth or sixth grade. My
first relationship in my life was with a chick."
And throughout her years of sexual discovery, confident Miley, who
briefly dated model Stella Maxwell last year (15), always knew
she'd be OK even though she grew up in a very religious Southern
family.
"Even at that time, when my parents didn't understand, I just felt
that one day they are going to understand," she smiles.